Well, starvation works. At least, I think it does. The scale refuses to budge, damn scale. But I can SEE the difference, and my clothing notices it, too.
I’m not really starving myself. Hello. I’m a writer. You won’t keep reading if I don’t get your attention. Right now, you’re either filled with curiosity (does it really work? should I try it, too?) or righteous indignation (she’s going to hurt herself, and worse yet, others will try it, too!)
I’m also not lying. My calorie count is ridiculously low – 750 calories a day, tops. But I’m not being unhealthy. My diet consists of kombucha and probiotic lemonade (both homemade – recipes to follow in a future post); fresh fruit: apricots, berries, cherries, grapes; a tiny handful of raw nuts and/or seeds; a small portion of protein; a tiny portion of complex carbo; lots and LOTS of water. Oh, and coffee. I gotta have my coffee in the morning.
As you see, low calorie doesn’t mean low nutrition. I’m looking at these few days as a cleanse, a detox, a not-quite-fast designed to reset my system.
Friday and Saturday were rest days – no exercise, except walking. Yesterday, I awoke full of energy, so I exercised (toning/strengthening) danced and walked. Ditto today.
My goal is to shrink my stomach and my mental expectations about food intake. ‘Eat all you want’ diets are folly. We’re overweight because we eat too much. Eating huge amounts of low calorie foods won’t work in the long run – the high calorie foods taste too good to avoid forever. We’ve got to eat less – much less, and we need to increase the nutrition density of what we DO eat.
Notice how I switched from ‘me’ to ‘us’ in the last paragraph? Tricky, huh? Actually, I’m not trying to be. The reason I’m writing this in a public forum is because I think many of us are in the same boat. We want to be healthy. We want to be trim. We want to be strong. But we can’t muster the motivation or the willpower. We can’t seem to find the magic’key’ – that understanding of ourselves that will allow us to stay the path.
I thought that perhaps if someone who seemingly has it ‘all together’ would step forward and be transparent about her struggle, then perhaps we all could struggle together instead of hiding behind our smiles.
At the very least, I can provide some amusement. 🙂
Seeking My Best Self 
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